Food for thought

As my kids happily play in the bath, I thought I'd take a moment to jot down some thoughts that have bogged me down for the last few months.

Lately it seems my hubby and I have traded places.  I have become the stressed out, looking negatively, back tracking type, while my hubby has taken to being the positive, God trusting trooper I have wanted him to become for years.

I remember not that long ago, being frustrated at his home coming of a night, he'd come home so grumpy and straight away start snapping at the kids, or me.  I remember sending him for a time out one night, sounds funny now, but really, I think sometimes we all need a little time like that.  I gave him a sheet of paper with the statement "10 things I am thankful for today" written on it.  At the time he thought, "what a joke, Im not doing that, it's dumb" but I think he remembers that when he's low and remembers that he has alot to be thankful for.

I know that I have not been pleasant to come home to some times, and have had to send a sos message to him at work on occasion (Read: once a week), as things keep me frustrated and at times ready to pull my hair out!  As I told B that this is how I felt, he consoled with out trying to fix, we talked about a great deal of things, and I cried (he had "something" in his eye) and I shared some of the journalling I had done at the Sheer Beauty retreat.  I felt like this was a "10 things" moment.

He has been dealing with his own wounds and issues, and we both brought a little healing and alot of life to each others situations.  And with all of it out in the open I feel the new healing processes beginning.  This past week has seen a mood change in me, and for the better.  I am capable of seeing my "10 things" where a few weeks ago all I saw was the "things I want to tear my hair out over".  I look at the second list of things, and think that while they are annoying, frustrating, and down right anger-growing, my "10 things" list has grown into atleast 15 at any given time!  And if I wanted to I could actually list all the people in the list "family" or "friends" and take it up to around the 50 things mark.

So, what are your 10 things?  And if you cant see a silver lining, let me know, and I'll let you in on my NEW secret weapon.

Krystal